I know exactly what you mean. My plan was to writer top-notch "articles" with tons of research and SEO. I never ever planned to write personal essays and personal stories.
I won't speak for you, that wouldn't be fair. But a life of paying attention, watching, introspection, reflection has put a some wisdom under the hood. Some things I'm still developing but so far, so great. And because I've made it to this stage in life I know what I want to say.
I won't presume this about you, but I can clearly see you know what you want to say. So, the armor drops. Because now we are ready to wear our crown. Step into our Queendom.
With that said, I enjoy your work, Queen.